Still alive!

I know, I’m sorry, I’m a terrible host.

I haven’t been feeling inspired or stubbed myself from not having anything interesting to share, or just not enough info about something that I was relatively happy about sharing. But then again, I don’t get paid to do this, do I? I do this for you, my spontaneous, probably-mostly-consisting-of-people-I-know-IRL, reader base. And of course you, my four little subscribers. Who are likely IRL friends of mine as well. Maybe even my mum.

I kind of deserve it. I wrote a grand total of 7 posts last year.

Anyhow, a bit of an update on my life; I know this probably isn’t whatever obscure reason you’re subscribed to see, but maybe a few of you actually find some interest in this!

So, a good while ago I was having a fight with a very old friend of mine, as you may remember if you read Hard Work, and we’ve made up! We get along quite nicely and I’m happy we’re back. People keep saying we’re like a couple, and we are. Except we don’t shag.

Well, I hope we’re going to be good to eachother for the rest of our days, because I positively hate having a piece of myself ripped out and then choosing to pretend that I don’t really need a liver or a kidney.

Other than that, I’m unemployed again. My old theatre job ended by September last year, and since then I’ve been playing the lute, and getting a forklift license. Which was kind of funny seeing as my coach and I talked about music and theatre and all (I know right, she should have helped me with that so I could become a waiter, right? Ha!), and moving abroad.

And I’ve been fucking up my sleep routine even more, and because of this I go to a doctor, who wasn’t very helpful and tried to get me hooked on some addictive anti-depressants although I stated that I was certainly not depressed.

And then there was Christmas, and New Years Eve.

Yeah, I’ve mostly been nerding about my lute lately. Like a boss. Maybe I’ll share once I get a computer with a better sound-shit-thingymajig.

Oh, speaking of which, my old, trusty computer finally gave up on me. Or well, the graphics card died. Old age, probably. I’m still in mourning. I’m currently on my mother’s old PC, which, is a generous donation as they were going to use it for media in my parents bedroom (suspicious, I know), but frankly. This computer is a piece of junk, much like my old one, although it’s been serving me faithfully since 2007.

With a lot of tweaking, you can play Fallout 3 on it. You can also play Minecraft. You cannot, however, play Skyrim. Or Amnesia. Penumbra; Overture works, but it looks like shit.

Oh, well that certainly brought you a lot of clues of my so, very, mysterious absence, didn’t it?

Here’s a picture to keep you all happy and interested, still looking good.

0079, out.

Manly, very manly.

This week;

This week I’ve been very busy doing things for my parents so they’ll find in their hearts to give me some dole for my hard work. I need to get some money to be able to move around, you see, while I am working on getting a job, my small town doesn’t have much to offer. Today I cooked and cleaned the kitchen. Then I quickly snapped some pictures and just finished transfering those to the computer. Now I will let the battery charge.

And yes, I know the new header looks like something out of a horror movie, a new one is coming, I swear!

Oh, and you remember that interesting post I was going to get you? You know, the one so mysterious I couldn’t even tell you what it was about? Yeah, that one! I bet you’re bursting with curiosity and have been sitting all this time glued to your chair just refreshing the page again, and again, and again just to be the very first person to read it, because you just can’t contain your curiosity! Right?

… No? Well, alright.

Anyhow, it’s coming. I’m still trying to get back into the hang of this after the holidays.

Actually it’s kind of lucky that I don’t often write posts about myself and my everyday life, because my everyday life is kind of boring and just like everyone elses, and I wouldn’t really know what to say about myself. I don’t really come to any great realizations about myself daily. But, I’m looking for a job, I’m just about to send my CV to a certain place, and in a few months I will try to get my ass to a school audition of sorts.

I know, I’m just the master of giving out details about stuff I’m going to do. Maybe you’ll get the details after, since you never really know what happens. Oh, right, I was cooking, I’ll be back in a second.

It was tasty. Ah, that’s something about me I don’t think I’ve mentioned. I’m a vegetarian, but I don’t mind other people eating meat or even cooking meat (I’m not very good at it though) and I’m not some political fanatic or more of an animal lover than your average person. A diet without meat just appears healthier to me, and since I’m not usually passionate about meat it wasn’t too hard to let that go. I eat fish though (which I think makes me a “semi-vegetarian”? I don’t eat chicken, however). One of my friends asked me if I’d eat a dolphin, but, I don’t know? You don’t usually eat dolphin, do you?

Then again, what do I know.

I’m sure you can figure out what it’s like to be home all day for weeks on end, mostly I go for a walk in the evening, sometimes I have a day out if I can manage to dig out the money, sometimes I go to parties, again, if I can afford it. I chat a lot with my friends online, I clean a lot in the house, I try to get myself through some creative process every now in a while, playing some music, painting, digitally or traditionally, and lately I play a lot of, ehm, computer games. Which is not really too creative of me.

Either how, at the end of the day you’re tired and frustrated from doing nothing and always being broke, so I tend to get in arguments with my parents every now and then too. Today they were happy though, since the kitchen was sparkling like a meyerpire in the sunlight.

It seems however, like I wont get any evening stroll tonight, so I shall go ahead and be productive. Here’s two of those pictures I talked about earlier;

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I’ve been having a problem lately, in most of my old pictures I wear make up, which I have done a lot throughout my life, there’s no denying, but somewhere last year I rather had enough of it, and now I only paint my face a few times a year, mainly for masquerades or plays. So, I rather felt like the old photographs didn’t show an up-to-date image of me.

Oh, yes, and I’m wearing a hat, such a mystery. I do have hair.

On Friday I’m going away to celebrate the birthday of a friend.

Well, until next time!

Anything

Hello, I’m called Ami, and I’m from southern Sweden, we don’t have any polarbears.

I’m nineteen and I’m about to stumble out into the life of adults, which is a rather scary place and I’m not really sure I want to grow up, like many others my age. Or perhaps even younger kids than me, because rather than being a young adult, I’m probably an old kid.

I look kind of like this;

 

I look better on the internet!

Anyways, I don’t have a job, I’ve just tried to save what I could of my school grades, and I’m graduating next week. My town is a small town in the middle of the SmÃ¥landish forests, in a yellow house on a hill. I have a great interest in music, theatre, art and certain forms of litterature. Some of my art can be seen here, my recorded music is perhaps not yet ready for the internet, and whatever I’ve written might show up here one day when I have very little to say, or happen to be proud of myself.

The biggest projects I’ve been doing lately were a play (“Fast forward”, a collage by Jonas Gardell and Mattias Andersson), a novel I wrote for school (called “Heroic deeds”), and I’m still working on the last project, which would be cleaning out my room.

I do a lot of roleplaying, in many different forms, and I listen to a lot of music. My favourites at the moment are Incubus and Myslovitz. I play the guitar, violin and piano kind of well while I own a whole bunch of other instruments which I can play more or less.

I think that’s about it, I started this blog because I have a need of expressing myself, and maybe I’ll manage to say something interesting once in a while, now that I can’t write any essays for school anymore I might just put something up here.

Well, enjoy yourselves, I suppose I’ll say something more important tomorrow!